Life is peculiar. You learn a lot of things along the way. Many are
helpful but then there are the destructive things also. Learning to discern
lies from truth can be tricky when you've believed it all for so very long.
Sometimes you just need to have someone lead you through and help you out of the
mire. The future is definitely brighter when you can get rid of the dirt that
has built up around you.
A year ago I started a journey that has changed
my life. I began to sift through the things I believed, and with help,
differentiating between what were truth and what were lies. It was an
experience that involved much pain, as emotional scars of embarrassment, shame
and guilt were exposed. A beautiful thing happened though. The pain was met
with and surrounded by Love.
For many years, I just accepted my abuse and used it as my "excuse" to be
angry, manipulative and controlling...and that is right where the enemy wanted
to keep me. No longer do I tolerate this of myself. I am a survivor and the
abuse I so identified with for much of my life, has lost its sting. You see, my
God is much bigger than the abuse that I endured. My God is my comforter and
healer! He is all I need... exactly at the time I need Him. I am His child and He
designed me to love. It is not always easy but it is always worth it. I am
learning to hear His voice above the noise and confusion that is daily life. I
love hearing from my Father and look forward to it even when I'm not sure I like
what he's telling me. Growing can be painful but I am eager to see where He is
taking me. In many ways, life has gotten easier. I no longer need to "always be right". I know that my God is, was and will always be
right, so as I calm my thoughts and focus on Him, He will speak the Truth to
me. His Love is never ending. His Love is where I wish to dwell forever!
eternally,
gr8ful4Him
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